Something changed about me over Christmas break.
Yeah, I dyed my hair (somewhat) blonde.
Yeah, I got engaged.
Those are great but I am talking about something more...intellectual?
I have had repeated people tell me they think I have matured. I am assuming they mean intellectually matured because I think I am about as physically mature as I will get.
- I did notice I am a calmer person. That doesn't mean much for me. I was boring to begin with. I am more tired. That is probably why.
- I also noticed I have a hard time focusing on objects in class. I think I need to have my eyes checked again. I don't see well.
- I am quieter because of these.
Could that be it?
Could it be me knowing I have a plan for the future and I now see it coming into play? Maybe it was the engagement. I have to be honest that college seems to menial compared to the real world. My internship has ruined college for me because it is better than any job I could have ever asked for. I just want it to be my full time dream job and I want college to be over.
Maybe it is not caring what others think anymore. I see the looks on some people's faces. They want to congratulate me for getting engaged but they stare at me as if they are analyzing me. They think something is wrong. I am too young. I am in college. I am just not...ready.
My mentor said he has seen changes in me for the better. I can't help but think it was something that happened, that I did, or that I experienced over break that made this happen.
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