Mommy Brain?

Working for Parents magazine, I hear all the time about "mommy brain." I am not a mother and don't plan to be one anytime soon but sometimes I am certain I have mommy brain.


I had to be at church at 7:45 this morning to help with the presentation for our pastor. Service usually starts at 8:15 but I had to set up. I got up at 6:45 and was completely on time. I was so proud of myself. I walked out the door at about 7:25, which left a solid 5 minutes of leeway for getting there on time. 


I walk out into my apartment's parking lot and don't see my car. It is nowhere. Where is it? This can't be happening. I go back into the apartment and bother Kaila while she is showering to ask her if she knows where it is. She didn't. But, I remembered. I left it parked on the road at Drake.

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Great, I think. I am sure it has been towed. I left it there on Friday evening. That is right FRIDAY. A whole almost two days ago. Kody drove me around on Saturday so I didn't even notice my lack of car. She suggested I get her car and drive it over to my car (if it is even still there) so I can take my car to church. 


I drive over to my car (which is certainly still there) and I realize I have no way to get the 6 inches of snow off my car. The doors are frozen shut and it is stuck in the snow. Great. I spend a solid 20 minutes getting it scraped and getting the doors open. I am now supposed to be at church at this time. UGH. Not to mention the $35 ticket I find frozen to my windshield for leaving my car in the street while the snow plows are out.


I decide to try to drive it but it is stuck in the snow that has piled up all around it. I try and try but it the wheels are just spinning. I put the car in park and just begin to cry. The one thing I was depended on to do today I can't even do. It bothered me so much. I didn't have the number of anyone who I could call to let the know I wasn't going to be on time so I felt hopeless.


I called Kody and he came to help me push my car out of the snow. By this time church service has already begun and I hope and pray they found someone to replace me for the morning. Instead of driving to church, where I am sure I would have been hated, I stop at Kody's house and look up the church phone number on the internet. I call up someone and tell them I am terribly sorry that I didn't make it and I couldn't contact anyone until that time. 


He sounded disappointed. The one thing I didn't want to do, I did. I disappointed someone. I couldn't even do a simple thing like drive a car to church. How did I let this happen? I may well have ruined church service today and I wasn't even there to see it. I am not sure I can show my face in church ever again.


I have only had my car for 5 days after having it in the shop for 2.5 weeks and I already have a ticket, disappointed someone, and bawled my eyes out. I just NEED this to be a better week. I need God to help me make it through this week strong. I can't stand another week like last week.