Stress and Destressing

I just made it through one of the most difficult weeks of my entire life. It was busy, and stressful, and scary. I feel that the end of the semester will always be like this for me: projects, tests, group work, events, and the list goes on.

I took an Advertising Principles test on Monday. I do not think I did as well as I would have liked. I studied for that test. Hardly. But I did study, which is a jump from the last Ad Principles test I took. I wasn't on my A game that day.

Wednesday was a Sociology test. got an 84. Story of my life. However, what is not the story of my life is the fact that I CAN'T get an A in that class. 89 is the highest possible score for me. I cried for about 2 hours after learning that. I tried so hard in that class to make it make sense to me and I failed. I might as well have given up half way through, because an 80 and an 89 are the same on a transcript. I felt like a complete and total failure. I wanted to die. I truly wanted to die right there. I have now come to the point where I am in denial and I feel like there has to be some way to still get that A. While I know this is untrue, that is the best I can do for now. My life HAS to go on somehow.

Thursday brought two more tests: Business Law and Marketing. Business Law was difficult to say the very least. I did not feel as unprepared as I truly was for that test. It gave me a headache. And I have a feeling that I did much worse than most of the others I know. After comparing answers, I did awful. Another B class? I truly hope not. Marketing was difficult as well. I don't know what my problem was, but I continually second guessed myself the entire time. I know I was well studied for that test, and I know that there wasn't much outside of what I did do to help in the process. I know this one is going to be up more to luck than anything.

Today is Friday. The day where all of my stress is gone. Nope. I have dishes (which is Kaila's duty once again), taking out the trash, cleaning up, buying some stuff to Kaila and I to drink, and making my bed. This can, and will, take many hours. I have been awake for over an hour now and have accomplished nothing yet. I really need to get my rear end in gear. I am just so worn out from my week that I can't force myself to do anything just yet. I want to relax for once this week. Just once. But I must go and workout now.