Thursday, June 17, 2010

Dillemma del Dios

I am frustrated a little bit right now. I wish I could figure out what God wants for me, well more of WHO he wants for me, and know it now. I thought I knew the exact person who I was going to marry and who God had set out for me. Up to about a month ago, I could have told you with 100% certainty who it would be. However, I am getting to the point where I can no longer beat around the bush with religion.

He is Catholic. Well, he says he's Catholic. He doesn't go to church. And is not willing to even try another denomination. And I can see how he feels that it is unfair that I want him to try out the Baptist religion. However, I have looked into Catholicism, as well as many others, and I feel I most closely relate to the Baptist religion. He, on the other hand, was raised "Catholic" and does not even know the slightest what being a Catholic is about. If he did, he would actually have a fair argument. But that isn't the issue.

The issue is that I am not supposed to be unequally yoked in marriage. I am supposed to be with another church-goer and believer and raise churchy offspring in a house with a white picket fence and a dog named Sparky. Actually, Spot. I like the name Spot better for this illustration. He says he is saved and prays and worships God, and I can almost believe that. However, he does not live the Christian life. He does some things that Christians try very hard not to do, and he does them without even flinching.

So am I supposed to marry this guy and assume he will convert? Or marry him and be okay with him not going to church? Or go separate ways with him? Or...duh...duh...duh...let him go to a Catholic church? I have prayed about it, asked for a bunch of advice, and looked up things on the internet. I am getting opposing results. This website says that I can marry a nonbeliever and it will work out just fine. This one opposes it. Look at them and make your own decision. They are making me even more stuck than I was before.

Ugh. I think I need to keep praying about this some more. Then, maybe I can try to come up with a decision...

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